Things about my bf and my ex friends are on my mind like that slut that likes my man.
And there is things I want to say to all of you.. I am sorry about well the incident , I feel bad about that, its degratin to think I did that...And I lost friends and I disrespect myself for this....and so don’t alot of you...
Lately my mind has been cluterd, and I cant tell right from wrong. I know this is no excuse. I know I have some...“issues”... When I say things about myself..I don’t mean them..its my almost healthy way of ventin how I sometimes feel inside about myself or just a way to relise anger without doing myself harm..
People have called me ugly so much, when someone tells me I am pretty I see it as a lie.. alot of things like that have messed with my head.
I come on here to talk becuase I feel in real life I cant trust anyone, because its real real. People around here gossip, alot. But on here I feel like I can talk free, accept when I am judge and or made fun of, but I relise thats what you get right. Beter to get made fun of after saying it then to hold it insde and have it kill yah.
Alot of you are like family to me, and I feel I trust alot of you more then I trust myself.
I, before now, felt like people who said they wanted to help realy just wanted yell at me or scorn me but I see now, and I apreciate it alot, thanks to kev and kass for trying to help me,and being there for me. I am stuborn and I know this, lol.
The only thing that I have done to help myself is come here and find such great friends as you guys. Some of you don’t like me, I can understand taht but I still like you, I cant hate and cant discriminate. I accept you all..
I want your guys help...and you want to help...but when I try and talk...I get made fun of so its hard for me...theres only one person I know I can talk to and thats kass..I cant even thank her anough for being there, you know...And Ty, my brother from another mother, I love you man, youve helped me alot....It take alot of space to thank everyone properly.. And one thing that made me mad was being called a slut for what happend...I view it as if you care about someone, you wouldnt call them that...
I am just waiting to be called something...lol... And that is what gets me, I hate being labeld and I usualy am...these are the things on my mind...that and why dosent my internet browser have spell check =/
This is from my heart..its not just words...I want to change....
hey, skittles, you know if you ever want to just talk i’m hear, right? if you tell me not to i won’t make fun of you or anything. its just i take most things not that seriously, so i joke around a lot. trust me though, i can be serious if you need me to be.
kev360 wrote:
hey, skittles, you know if you ever want to just talk i’m hear, right? if you tell me not to i won’t make fun of you or anything. its just i take most things not that seriously, so i joke around a lot. trust me though, i can be serious if you need me to be.
ah, i hate it when that happens. it used to be like that for me all the time when i was younger. you have to clear your mind and stuff and just relax. what time is it where you are? i’m sure i should know by now, but i don’t. lol.
well thats your problem. you gotta think some other time. convince yourself that nothing is a pressing matter, then picture a room being cleared out, then just hold that picture. it sounds weird, but that actually worked for me a lot. the biggest thing is to relax. try either listening to some (relatively calm) music, then just try focusing on relaxing every muscle on your body.
this as in not sleeping? oh, and, above all else, don’t try to sleep. lol. don’t worry about not sleeping. lying there at least rests your body a lot, so it should be fine. that pretty much broke my lack of ability to sleep.
Am not judging you for the covering boob thingy you did actually its pretty normal for a girl and a boy your age to be doing stuff like that. Just I wouldn’t have posted it on hear thats all. But you dident show anything and took a bit to much flack over it I think.
I wouldn’t say am that good at giving advis. Am moor good at just lessening.
I think you need moor confidence as I think your well liked hear and can imagine you are at home as well, even if you think your not.
I wish you the best of luck with any relationship your dealing with whether that be you boyfriend are just friends.
I think your better then cool and have always been realy friendly towards me
