I’m lonely b/c I’m going through a rather torturous breakup - it’s been five months, and there is no end in sight. We hit a rough patch, and I gave my ex the time he asked for - two weeks later, he came back, said he loved me, was in love with me, and wanted to make it work. “Let’s turn over a new leaf”, he said. By this point, I completely opened my heart to him and was ready to open up emotionally, mentally, etc - all walls down, no holding back. A week later, he came to my job with Godiva, told me how beautiful I was, asked me over for dinner that night ... and that evening, he broke with me. And like a fool, I continued to see him (hence the 5 months), because he begged for my friendship - said I was his best friend, and couldn’t bear to not have me in his life. Yet each time after I see him, I feel lower and lower, to the point of suicidal ... ridiculous. He didn’t break up with me to be with anyone else, I can say this without a doubt - he’s young, and busy and preoccup with work and his music - he said he couldn’t bear to disappoint me, and if we were together, he would.
All that, and my home life is like walking on eggshells. And I have no direction, and I’ve lost all motivation. Which really sucks because I’m smart and used to be very driven.
God, I must sound so sorry.
As a side note, I put the sexy individual statement up as my away message last night, and it did elicit laughs. Thanks boooo
Sorry for the long post, at least it seemed to be cathartic.
Cruz wrote:
I’m lonely b/c I’m going through a rather torturous breakup - it’s been five months, and there is no end in sight. We hit a rough patch, and I gave my ex the time he asked for - two weeks later, he came back, said he loved me, was in love with me, and wanted to make it work. “Let’s turn over a new leaf”, he said. By this point, I completely opened my heart to him and was ready to open up emotionally, mentally, etc - all walls down, no holding back. A week later, he came to my job with Godiva, told me how beautiful I was, asked me over for dinner that night ... and that evening, he broke with me. And like a fool, I continued to see him (hence the 5 months), because he begged for my friendship - said I was his best friend, and couldn’t bear to not have me in his life. Yet each time after I see him, I feel lower and lower, to the point of suicidal ... ridiculous. He didn’t break up with me to be with anyone else, I can say this without a doubt - he’s young, and busy and preoccup with work and his music - he said he couldn’t bear to disappoint me, and if we were together, he would.
All that, and my home life is like walking on eggshells. And I have no direction, and I’ve lost all motivation. Which really sucks because I’m smart and used to be very driven.
God, I must sound so sorry.
As a side note, I put the sexy individual statement up as my away message last night, and it did elicit laughs. Thanks boooo
Sorry for the long post, at least it seemed to be cathartic.
Hi.. “Sexy Individual” ...
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Etain wrote:
Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.
Sometimes I feel so lonely that i just want to throw up. like it makes me physically sick.
today was a bad day. Then again, i knew the day Grandy got his headstone would be sad. I dont understand why i still blame myself for his death. I feel like it’s my fault somehow, but i’m smart enough to know that i’m not in control of which old men get penumoina and which don’t.
this year just hasn’t been as good as they said it would be. i’m tired of the “it’ll change when you get to school/intermediate/high school/college/university, and finding out that it’s just the same, i still feel isolated and unloved.
i dont even have my motivation anymore to keep me company. i used to be able to do stuff except curl up in a little ball and cry.
oh well. things have to be broken for you to fix them, i guess.
Kara wrote:
The worst is when everyone in the dorm goes to bed. and you are still up. when all your friends are busy and you are the only one without a significant other.
the worst.
There’s lots of people who are alone in this world - you’re not the only one. I struggle with this too.
who the fuck is this itachi coochy uchi FOOL .. are you fucking dumb? “deserve to vanished” ...??? and what does being barbaric have to do with homosexuality u stupid fuck. my LORD you must be really unhappy with yourself !! ......(dickhead)....
i think the common denominator in this group is a lack of getting layed........... THINK about it...
and also.... maybe stop constantly focusing on how shitty your life is and instead put your energy into other things.. like.. for example..... getting layed??
dont take this in a bad way. i am JUST as socially fucked up as allllllllll you but im just sayin that focusing on it is the WORST possible thing you can do.
