i am lonely will anyone speak to me

I don’t feel worthy of the gift of life. I feel so crappy, yet, I know, how precious life is. Like people with cancer would give anything for a second chance. And I take it for granted. Life. WTF am I complaining about? I have talent as a painter and a sculptor. I feel things deeply and have much to share. I feel empty. Alone. Undeserving. God wasted these talents on me. I’m sorry.

Spiral, Its not even funny how similar our stories are.

I hate everything about life, yet I think I truly like who I am. I’m been told I’m extremely talented at music and art, I’m funny, and I am liked by most people. Yet I’m always lonely and miserable. I take so many meds for depression and I often self-medicate. I feel so isolated from everyone around me and I can’t be apart of society. I feel so incapable of living life like a normal person, having relationships and having friends. Whenever I get close to people I realize I’m just faking and I am always comprimising my life.

I know i live in Alaska, 54, I’m gay, some one into crashed my car the other day, now i have to pay for it. Living all alone in the mountains, my dog froze to death.

And I’m freezing to death, i have no family. I have cancer, and aids (from last boyfriend).

Now ask yourself, are you really lonely?

It’s Christmas and I live in a house with 13 family members, yet I feel so isolated. There are times when I enjoy my solitude, but others were I want someone to ask how I’m doing, not just assume because I don’t appear bummed out I’m not.

i am lonely

yes it is

Etain wrote:

Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.

Cid - don’t call me “hun” or “dearest” thanks.

as w/ myself(at least i think so) and w/ many others looks and money dont seem to count for much in making friends, and niether is being courteous and respectful? so what the hell are we missing that others have?

LOVE

Etain wrote:

Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.

Cid - don’t call me “hun” or “dearest” thanks.

mhm

yeah ?

Etain wrote:

Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.

Cid - don’t call me “hun” or “dearest” thanks.

yup

does Melissa believe in Jesus ?

Etain wrote:

Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.

Cid - don’t call me “hun” or “dearest” thanks.

THE_PAIN wrote: does Melissa believe in Jesus ?

aww poor darling you are bored arn’t you

There are two ways of meeting difficulties. You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them.

maybe this will be the end of me ....to live solo ....who knows ...maybe one day i might not take it anymore and put an to my life.....that would be easy......sooo easy

le sigh wrote: Cruz,

It sounds like he’s your psychic vampire. Free yourself.

-le sigh

Le Sigh - just saw this. I took a few days off the board, a reply to one of my posts kinda threw me. I’m trying - like an idiot, went to go see his band play last night (their first major, major show). Later, I got to watch his ex-girlfriend fawn over him while I hung to the sidelines. It was not the best night, a very big mistake. But little by little, right? Blocked his aim, at least. That’s a start ... thank you for the encouragement.

dido

Yeah I feel you all my homies... just keep goin on

You a soulja dont give up on life ..

“Death is inevitable... Welcome it as a friend, and it can’t be your enemy”
What I wouldn’t give to start over...

I’m glad this epidemic isn’t specific or unique to me. I’m in the camp of people who are obviously very romantic at heart but are rarely given the chance to show it. While I’m not unnecessarily great at making a move on a girl. I can say with a reasonable amount of objectivity that I’m attractive (25 years old, 5’7, 135 lbs, clear skin), intelligent, and funny, but for some reason, I give out a completely asexual vibe and noone ever really considers for a moment that I could be a romantic interest. I have a really great group of friends; I’m well known and well liked at college, me and my friends would probably even be considered popular. I’m very happy that my social skills have been good enough to connect with such a great group of people that I care for and respect, but the girl thing is starting to get ridiculous.

I guess the question I’d have for the peanut gallery is; has anyone here had any success in figuring out how to present yourself as a sexual being? It seems like with me, people don’t even think I’m interested. I don’t feel like people are repulsed by me, they just don’t ever consider the idea, and if it ever came up, they’d just think it was so strange.

Here is the simplest exercise in the world that will make you feel much better. Do it however childish it might seem. Write down 10 good things you ve done today. If you havent get out and do them, It could be as simple as steping aside to let someone pass, Dont Write down negative thoughts unless you can counterfit them with something positive. You will notice how your brain starts to shift thinking. and that is called changing your point oof view. Trust me all the happy people do that, they just dont let sad thoughts take over and before you know it you are good. The point is to Catch yourself at that moment and shidft your thinking. EVRY SINGLE TIME.

Human beings are always adicted to feelings that they are used to having. If you spend too much time thinking and feeling bad things than you are feeding yourself into more of thinking and feeling bad. If you only forced your self to try and bring in good thoughts, believe in them as much and as intensely as you do when you are down then you will START bringing in good feelings. Thes steps are 1 thinking, 2 feeling, 3 awareness of feeling (and acting upon it) and there goes the cycle again. The confusion is found in the misconception that feelings come first...