Unbelievable, we’re all here and thinking the same thing. I’m lonely - so much that after several minutes of staring at the screen I could think of nothing other than “I’m lonely” to type into google. I’m going to type “fix my life” into the search engine next. Let’s see if that works.
emma wrote:
i am engaged and have a good job but i have never been as lonely before in my life.
anybody want to talk with me?
I am here to chat if you want to. I am brand new to this message board (seraphin) but you can e-mail me at diverjeb@gmail.com. I typed “I’m lonely” into google and ended up here. Kinda funny-ish.
seraphinb wrote:
Unbelievable, we’re all here and thinking the same thing. I’m lonely - so much that after several minutes of staring at the screen I could think of nothing other than “I’m lonely” to type into google. I’m going to type “fix my life” into the search engine next. Let’s see if that works.
pls do tell me if you some site teaches you to .. “fix my life"
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Etain wrote:
Cid Highwind wrote:
Moderator record hun, ..yada yada yada ..I was talking about, dearest.
seraphinb wrote:
Unbelievable, we’re all here and thinking the same thing. I’m lonely - so much that after several minutes of staring at the screen I could think of nothing other than “I’m lonely” to type into google. I’m going to type “fix my life” into the search engine next. Let’s see if that works.
pls do tell me if you some site teaches you to .. “fix my life”
I typed 'I am so lonely' into google and this popped up. I am intelligent, good looking, sucessful and alone. Loneliness is a disease-a disease which afflicts those of us with the minds to think and look around. We are so very insular, I commute every day and when I try to start a conversation I am looked at in shock/offence/distain-people would rather be silent than friendly. Sad reflection of modern society
I walk alone on this earth so much of the time yet pretending that I have somewhere to be, something to do. I don’t. I’m just full of shame about my loneliness, about my lack of friends and relationships at which I’m a disaster. I went to a movie tonight, alone, and when I got there I saw a guy I know buying tickets at the window. I was so mortified that he’d see me going alone that I turned and hurried away and went to another theatre in town. This is my Christmas. I’ve not really spoken with anyone for days (except my family). This is not life, it’s a terminal slow death sentence.
I’m sitting here at my computer in my basement, and I’m feeling that unsecure about myself that I typed I’m lonely on Google. I’m sort of amazed so many people have done the same thing. I’m smart, decent looking, nice to everyone, and all the girls just keep dumping me for other guys. I’m one of those people who needs someone to love me, or I don’t feel good. I spend my nights sitting here, wishing things were better. I try, I meet people, I do the best I can with everything, but no one has any interest. I’m glad to know there’s other people that feel the same. It’s Christmas, and all I’ve done today is sit down, wishing I had someone special to spend it with and buy gifts for (other than family).
Look at all the lonely people, where have they all come from?
Being lonely, especially around the holidays, is a private despair that many people have and try to hide. Loneliness and being alone are two different things, but during the holidays we are sequestered from most other people and have to ride it out in solitude. For me, the toughest things are the commercials showing the happy, loving families or the “From our loved ones” ads. Ugh.
Being lonely doesn’t mean that we’re stupid, ugly, or social misfits. It only means that we haven’t found the right one yet.
wow....i did the same thing in google and it brought me to this site.....if annyone feels bored or w.e post ur msn on here and we can chat who knows u might live a street down.
I have a husband and a beautiful daughter, yet I too am lonely. My marriage isn’t going very well and I don’t know how to fix it. I’m afraid of losing my daughter. I’m afraid of losing my job. I’m always afraid. My sister died in February and I have nightmares that I will die before seeing my daughter through to adulthood. I can’t fill the emptiness. I’m very, very depressed.
when u know that u’ll never get what others easily get..when u r so depressed n those around u totally ignorant 2 it or in denial. u r lonely...n i’m lonely n depressed n nothing like a walk could work 4 me.
when life’s unattainable n u even can’t cry....
i live in country in which a date is not an easy thing...hard 2 explain...how life here s so complicated....or is it us? i don know. i’m so confused n pissed.
Nitya wrote:
It’s Christmas in Thailand.
As usual I’ll be spending it alone.
But I’d like to give a warm HUG to all those feeling lonely tonight...
Merry Christmas!!!!!!! May you all believe that you are a part of something, if only we look beyond ourselve. May all of you find happiness tonight.
To my friends in here...hi guys...its been a while but doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking of you.....*Brian*...just saying your name makes me smile.....*the_pain*....we’ll talk soon....*pls*...how are things...and *dancingclayman*, *mimi*, *etain*...missed you....*bord/pluto*.....*Tyreaus*..*hannah*...*mezza*....wish you all a very Merry Christmas....live the moment.
Checked here on a whim- pleased to see your post dear Nitya. My Christmas was quiet, but I am happy for that for once. Nice to have some time to waste. I’ll have to send you a catch-up email — it’s been too long. Heaping holiday blessings upon you, and to all my moviecodec friends! xo
12/22/2007
Dear God,
This year has been one of the roughest years for me ever. I am 22 years old and I attend Big Valley Grace Community church. I have been going there since I was 7 years old. My mom started taking me when I was a child and I have been plugged in there ever since. There are many reasons to why this year has been so rough and hard on me. So I guess I will start from the beginning.
It was December 25th, 2006, and I found myself out of state away from family for Christmas. It was hard last year to not be able to spend Christmas with my family because I didn’t have the funds to come home from college. It was my first Christmas apart from family and friends. I spent that Christmas watching movies and doing nothing because everyone accepts me was home for Christmas from my college. I was the only person there, all by myself. At the same time I was in a relationship with a girl. She made me smile every time I saw her and I truly thought that this girl was the one that I would spend the rest of my life with. Although, at this time, she was having difficulty with understanding if she really wanted to be in a relationship with me. She too was at home spending the holidays with her family so that gave her some time to think about us. During the rest of the time that I spent to myself at school I made puzzles, watched movies, read Your word and slept. I also had a steady job working at McDonald’s and I made time go by faster sleeping mostly in the down time.
Finally, Everyone came back to start the New Year and new semester of school. I was no longer alone or by myself. With people around me and having my girlfriend back made things easier on me since I hate being alone. I seem to connect to people and find it very easy for me to make someone’s day by complimenting them and encouraging them. It is just something about me that wants to tell someone what he or she are good at or how well they look for that day. I also get a lot of laughs, well because I am a funny guy I have been told.
My girlfriend and I decided to continue on with our relationship although things seemed kind of rocky from the get go. She was still having trouble knowing if she wanted to be with me, but couldn’t see any reason to get out of a relationship that felt so right. Classes started for me as a senior.
Classes were great. I was learning every day about new things and wonderful things about myself. It was challenging but refreshing to hear the things that were mentioned and discussed in class. Homework was an ease and I found myself coasting through this semester as if I were skating on ice. Although, I do have to mention that it didn’t seem as if my social life apart from my girlfriend was really on the high roller at all. I have found it difficult in my life to find close friends, the ones that really care to get to know you kind of friends. The closest friend that I had made to date lived in the state I was going to college, so I found myself growing closer to him than anyone else. At about the same time my relationship with my girlfriend had turned to a physical one and I dare to say that it wasn’t just a holding hands physical. But it made me feel good and I continued in it because I found that I was justifying my actions as being okay because I thought I loved her. This struggle would be the hardest to break for the next few months of school. I found myself consumed of this girl and she found herself confused and broken hearted just about every day because of this physical problem. I told her that my love language was being close, that there was nothing wrong with her expressing these types of actions to me because a relationship is supposed to meet one’s needs. That soon became a lie in our minds and dug deeper and deeper until it had a threshold on both of us. Even though school was easy this relationship was not. When both of us came to grips with how far away from God this physical sin was pulling us, we faithfully asked for forgiveness and went to the Dean of students. We both wanted to make things right with those in authority over us. We sought help and because of our actions we were asked to leave the school ASAP. I was only a month from graduation, but hey, I made the mistake and I can’t go back and change it. I gathered all of my things that day and I prepared to leave. My Dad flew out to meet me and drive home with me back to California. I left all my friends and all my past 3 years of trying to finish school, but found myself short. Now let me tell you a little bit about my father and I.
Growing up it has been tough through the years between my Dad and I. We are so alike that we are like two magnets with the same sign. We seem to get into the pile and but heads over just about everything. I know he cares for me but never seems to know how to care in the right way. He goes to church three times a year but never expresses any interest around me about spiritual things. That has made for a rough growing up of how I should conduct myself as a man. So you can just imagine with how things have went for me at school that this drive home together with my father would be such a splendid one. Not exactly. About 500 miles into the drive he started to yell at me because of some not so big deal things. I got mad and through him out of the car. I told him that I wanted to drive the rest of the 1500 miles home by myself because there was no way that I was going to make it there sane. So I did. My dad found another way home and I drove the rest of the way by myself. Please forgive me for that one. I don’t realize the consequences of that action until now. Please free me from that guilt. I made it home 2 days later and I settled into grandpa’s house. I could almost predict what was going to happen if I moved back in with my parents after what had just happened. So I moved in with my grandpa just down the road. Remember what happened with my girlfriend and me.
That didn’t stop. She and I still talked on the phone and planned for her to come to California to meet my family. Her parents were really worried about it and she was too but she said she had to come so she could confirm in her mind if I was the one for her. She came in June and stayed with my parents. I still stayed at my grandpa’s house while she was here. She was here for two weeks and things didn’t change between the physical at all. We both still indulged in deeper physical and it made both of us feel so retched inside. It was amazing to see how although we knew how terrible it was we kept on with it over and over and over. Man sin really has its grip on you when you are weak. Her time here was just okay and it was time for me to fly out to Virginia to meet her family. We had planned a missions trip down to South America together with her family so that was one of the reasons for me coming early before so I could get to know them. While we were there our problem grew more and more. By this time it was out of control to the limit. With a lot of tears and heart throbbing pain we both didn’t know what to do. It came time to go on the missions trip but we felt that this had gone way to far that I almost backed out of the trip altogether to just go home and call it quits. But still, sin had held onto us for all that it could. We flew 14 hours down to South America to do God’s work. It didn’t feel like God’s work at all. Three days into the trip she broke up with me. I found myself lonelier than I had ever been in my life. 4000 miles from home and no way of escape. I had to bear the next 7 days spending time around my ex-girlfriends mom, dad and grandpa and her as well. This was hard. I cried every night myself to sleep because I just wanted this to end. This pain I had inside of not having anyone but you. You were the only one there for me in this time and I thank you for that. I made arrangement to come home the same day I flew into Virginia to come back to California. Finally I was home.
I came home and settled in with my parents at their house. I didn’t make it to long there until I was asked to leave because my dad and I couldn’t bear to be in the same house together. It was just that he had so many rules over me I felt like I had no freedom. Telling me what time to get up everyday, what to eat, how to find a job, can’t watch TV, I couldn’t handle it anymore. So I was out of there in a heartbeat. Plus it wasn’t good on my mom and I couldn’t see her go through all that.
Being back for only a few days I plugged myself back into the college group at Big Valley. I thought if I got myself involved that I would start to make some friends and start to get my life back on track. Being back for only a month in a half I fell in love. I met a girl in the group that I liked a lot. It brings cramps to my stomach when I think about it. I desired to do things differently. I asked God to lead this time. We both wanted to have a pure godly relationship with one another. So we did. We got the blessings of both our families to be in a relationship. We asked elders of the church to mentor us and disciple us and we wrote out boundaries of how things were to be and not to be in our relationship. I truly felt a peace and contentment about this from the beginning and she did to. We both felt that we were doing every thing right. I was confirmed by others that we were doing things right. You confirmed me that we were doing things the right way. But it didn’t work. Why it didn’t work, I don’t know God. Only you do. I think about her every day and every night. I pray for her still and love her so much. I wanted to stick in there for her, but I wasn’t strong enough. Why did she have to be this way? Why does she have to be sick? God, I love her so much still and I just want to know that she is okay. That she is safe and is growing everyday in you. And now, I feel so alone. I have come home every single day for the last month because no one calls me and no one cares for me like you do. You’re all I have. And you’re all I need. But, if by your will you could give me just one friend to talk to. I am tired of crying myself to sleep every night because all my life is, is work and work and nothing else. I have tried to get involved in church and have even asked to serve with the gifts that you have given me, but I was told that I couldn’t because of my past. Where do I belong God? Who do I trust now? Why do I feel so lonely inside? I cry uncontrollably, sobbing at the top of my lungs because of this emptiness inside. My eyes are red with tears and my lips are swollen because of dryness. Oh God, bring me a better year next year. Grow me and make me more like you. Bring someone into my life that cares. I put these things into your hands because in myself I will fail. You know my life and the plans that you have for me. I don’t want this life to bring me emptiness anymore.
Sincerely,
Your Child in Christ.
Natalie Grant – In Better Hands
It’s hard to stand
On shifting sand
It’s hard to shine
In the shadows of the night
You can’t be free
If you don’t reach for help
And you can’t love
If you don’t love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out…
Casuse I’m in better hands now
Chorus:
It’s like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It’s like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine
There’s no doubt
I’m in better hands now
I am strong
All because of you
I stand in awe of
Every mountain that you move
I am changed
Yesterday is gone
I am safe
From this moment on…
And there’s no fear when the night comes around
I’m in better hands now
Chorus
It’s like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It’s like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
It’s like the world is silent
Though I know it isn’t true
It’s like the breath of Jesus
Is right here in this room
So take this heart of mine
There’s no doubt
You can’t be saved
If you’re not reaching out for help
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