Robert Sommerset wrote:
Thought I’m probably never going to come back to this thread, thought I’d share my sick, sad story as well.
As soon as I decided to hunker down and get serious with my life, I stopped partying, I stopped all social progress for the sake of looking after myself, and now I have lost my dear friends, my family hates me because I’ve decided against having children or becoming a doctor, I gave up a great job for school and started smoking to feel something from the past. I have a shit job that pays minimum wage for 8 hours a week, no one will give me chance for a job because I never finished school because I cannot afford it. I have no money to go to bars or social gatherings, and all the confidence and momentum I had before is gone.
It’s been over 2 years since this has happened, and now I’m posting an anonymous entry to random onlookers who I will never hear from. I don’t see why Christians and other do-goodies get freaked out about suicidals when they adamantly refuse to help out people in need of friendship unless they give in to their Religion. Contradictory bullshit. Wish I could have been born in the future - the beginning of true civilization when Religious nonsense is dead.
Not all christians are like that. well my family and i aren’t really religious sure we go to church and everything but we still help out people who aren’t christians. I don’t think your family should hate you cuz it was your decision. And I don’t think your family does hate you. They might act like it but deep down you are still their family, their blood. once in a while families have a disagreement with one of the members that can last ages but that doesn’t necessarily mean they hate you to the point they wish you were dead. Have you tried to talk to them?
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“Sometimes i feel like a butterfly trapped inside a cocoon
wishing i could spread my wings and fly away”
sigh, my voice, softer than a sweet breeze, no one is quiet and still enough to hear. My life warmer than sunshine setting on the lonely beach that is me. Naked thoughts, powerful dreams, reaching out to my future woman.... please, please won’t you see me? spellfound@aol.com
Eric if you go actively searching for your true someone then you will miss her and find all the people who are wrong for you in one shape or the other. If you enjoy life wholistically then you will find your perfect someone along the way at the right time. You may be yearning for them now but if you have not found her then it is not time yet and you need to continue with life so that it wont pass you by. When your minds are on a similar plane of thought through life experiences then and only then will you both meet. Don’t put off life. Each day is precious. Seize the moment. Good luck and best wishes.
sorry I’m not religious or anything, um, my name refers to a blasphemous UK sitcom about criminal vicars.
I just liked the zen budhist thing that life is indeed painful, rather than the christian “your being suffered coz your wiked”
most religion has always been about controling people anyways, I was reading about budhist in the middle ages, and they lived in gold palaces getting drunk.
hey, anyone out there, altho I am typing this message here, I doubt it that I will feel anysort of connection with anyone else having typed/having read this trail of posts...
... I am lonely, how does my loneliness feel like? to abstractly put it, I feel like I am a movie scene not able to progress where right before my current scene, is the mouline rouge OST track, 'come what may'... I listened to it again, and I felt loneliness that persisted... as I have no companion...
I will push on today, yet another day. after day and after more day...
I read one of the post before as saying, I am lonely would anyone walk with me tonite... I’d like to, if anyone wouldn’t mind walking with this guy. I just want to walk with someone. (too)...
I posted on this thread about a year ago. I thought that when I made my original post I’d come back later when my life was better and laugh at it. Well here I am a year later and my life still isn’t any better. So much in my life has changed within that year, but I am still alone.
Let me help your loneliness, friends. Because you all shine brilliantly, and you are all stars.
There is a way to still your lonely, even though you may not believe me. There is a way to still your sadness. I would that I could tell you this way, but I can not... for it is different for everyone.
For me? Nostalgia is a death runner, and he will cut me down in my step. Look forward, never back, because your mind has a unique ability to pick out only the worst aspects of your past, and all your worst mistakes.
1. Nostalgia is a death runner, embrace the future and you embrace hope.
Sometimes, I am cheered by the very fact of the things I do not yet know... think of that, think of all the things you don’t know about the people you love. Think of all the things they will confide in you.
2. The things that you do not yet know are the most beautiful.
Do not cripple yourself and revel in your own injuries. Get out! Bind your rhythm with the rhythm’s of the world, get out of your houses, onto the streets, walk, feel the ground *through the concrete*, feel the air *through the smog*, and through all of us, feel the earth.
3. Do not revel in your own injuries, get out of your house.
And I tell you this, because nothing is more soothing than love. Keep as many brothers and sisters as you can. Love everyone you can get your hands on, love is the saviour, love will see you safely through.
4. Love, and gather as many brothers, and sisters, as you can.
And I will tell you one more thing, the key to love, is compassion, and care, and sacrifice. You must have all three, and it is simple.
-Because, 'symbiosis' is the greatest origin of true power you and your people will ever discover; in light of which, you will even ultimately find your most sophisticated weaponry and most grand of military infrastructural forces to be your biggest and most embarrassing self-induced weaknesses to date.
I moved out of my parents house because my brother is an alcoholic and he kept screaming and crying at night, hitting me and trying to have sex with me. My parents won’t talk to me now because they feel my moving out was a childish and selfish act.
I now work in a restaurant trying to pay my rent. I’ve lost my friends because they say I’ve changed. Well, who wouldn’t.
I’ve been depressed before, but now I can’t afford my therapy.
I’ve never shared with anyone close to me that my grandfather raped me for 6 years, because i’m afraid they won’t believe me.
I have no idea what to do. I hear people say these are the good years (i’m 18), so is it all downhill from here?
I moved out of my parents house because my brother is an alcoholic and he kept screaming and crying at night, hitting me and trying to have sex with me. My parents won’t talk to me now because they feel my moving out was a childish and selfish act.
I now work in a restaurant trying to pay my rent. I’ve lost my friends because they say I’ve changed. Well, who wouldn’t.
I’ve been depressed before, but now I can’t afford my therapy.
I’ve never shared with anyone close to me that my grandfather raped me for 6 years, because i’m afraid they won’t believe me.
I have no idea what to do. I hear people say these are the good years (i’m 18), so is it all downhill from here?
I have never been sexually abused so I can not comment there but that sucks.
I moved out of home when I was 20. Probably would had done it sooner but I was going fro surgery from 18 - 20 so would had been a bit difficult to move out. My parents also did not agree with me moving out. But well I still even now at 34 years old think moving out was a good idea.
At first it was awful. I barely had enough money to feed my self properly. Well acutely I probably was not eating right do to lack of funds and the flat I was living in was a lot to be desired. They where not good days. I did feel very vulnerable and very alone. Well I have always felt alone but them first days living alone where much worse by for. But the flat I had was my own space and I had no one giving me a hard time there. For me my 20s sucked. Am having a much better time of it in my 30s. Being young is not always the best years of your life. I would say for you the best is yet to come. Hang on ye.
same path - google- same problem; now it is 00:43, in the middle of the night, i am feeling quite depressed, sad, lonely at most.
i lost my mother in a car accident 6 months and 6 days ago
i can’t let her go away from my mind, but i am also in a crossroad about my career, and i have to be very hardworking this year, and also for years i haven’t had a decent relationship, and i’ve got tired from being alone, i need a special someone shoulder for my good and bad days
17 years old and i typed in “i am lonely” and this came up, everything seems to be falling apart around me. i was told the teenage years were the good ones....
my bf just up and moved out 4 months ago (after 5.5 years)- he was very mean - i was relieved but held on during the relationship as i did not want to get lonely - well here i am - lonely again; meanwhile he still calls me and is mean = yet i pick up the phone just to avoid being lonely - which is worse? him and his meanness or lonely? thanks for listening - the lonliness seems to be the lesser of the two evils = but then he will call and i will answer - geez - what a rut - may God and the universe get me out of this rut asap!!
my bf just up and moved out 4 months ago (after 5.5 years)- he was very mean - i was relieved but held on during the relationship as i did not want to get lonely - well here i am - lonely again; meanwhile he still calls me and is mean = yet i pick up the phone just to avoid being lonely - which is worse? him and his meanness or lonely? thanks for listening - the lonliness seems to be the lesser of the two evils = but then he will call and i will answer - geez - what a rut - may God and the universe get me out of this rut asap!!
Google. Connecting people in some way, isnt’t it? I typed in “i feel so lonely” and here I am... I don’t feel better after reading all these posts though. I still feel lonely. And sometimes I wonder if I will ever find someone to truly love me, someone to care for me, someone to protect me, someone to want to live the rest of his life with me. I don’t know if I believe in true love anymore. I used to believe.
darling wrote:
Google. Connecting people in some way, isnt’t it? I typed in “i feel so lonely” and here I am... I don’t feel better after reading all these posts though. I still feel lonely. And sometimes I wonder if I will ever find someone to truly love me, someone to care for me, someone to protect me, someone to want to live the rest of his life with me. I don’t know if I believe in true love anymore. I used to believe.
It’s still out there, true love. It’ll come to you, and there are people here, and out there, who will help you through the wait. People who will help protect you and care for you and love you until that true love comes to you. He’ll come to you, and as long as we’re here, you’re not alone too.
