I wanna chat with MAMADELL..

Odd Wad

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Blah Blah Blah

mamdell

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Are u trying to harrass me?
Not possible. I post because i have too much energy that needs to be expelled. I read everything. I walk and walk for kilometres on end. I cook, clean, wipe baby’s bums and chase them around trying to keep clothes on them and still i have energy to burn. I get exhausted and still i have energy to burn.
So, shoot.

oddwad

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Nah I not trying to harass you. The Pain sed you could solve most probs. I got one that is tricky

oddwad

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is anyone here and where are ya all

oddwad

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I just wont get the message that I will always be on my own. bummer

oddwad

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seems im on my own again

mamdell

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I had to work today. Such is life!
No i cannot solve most problems. The PAIN was just being a smart arse as usual.
Nobody is gonna solve your problems but u. If they are that bad u should try and find a cousellor that suits u. A good coucellor will help you to learn ways of coping with your problems. I don’t know where u live or how old u are or your financial situation or ur problems. Therefore i can’t recommend much.
There is no way anyone else is gonna solve your problems. Not possible.
Do u need medication? Have u been recommended medication and are refusing to take it? It may help u to get a grip and stand back from your current panic. If u feel u are being abused then u need to seek other help if possible. I don’t know where u live so i can’t recommend anything.
Do u have a local youth centre?
There must be someone who cares genuinely?
Anyway, if u tell me your circumstances maybe i can help u find help even if you’re in another country. If u genuinely need emergency help then i can only try to find a link for u or maybe a website that does couselling-i heard of an Australian based one for depression support. I cannot guarantee anything and maybe i will fail. I may not be able to help u much but i can try.
I don’t know????

oddwad

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Cheers for the thread. I don’t wanna tell all the problems, it may work out bad. As YODA says “letting more people know our problems, our advesaries will increase”. This is so true.

I got hatred in my mind/heart. Hatred for most things. I hear sarcasm in the voices, what can I expect tho. These people are everywhere, they in top jobs IE work for the government, hospitals, doctors, police, traffic wardens, shops, banks, building societys, land registers, computers/programmers, criminal, russians, germans, british, american, arabs, chineese.

Everyone and no one.

There is something wrong in my mind. I mean I look healthy, function ok apart from a few problems. But there is something there like a rusty nail/splinter in my mind saying “this is not the truth”.

They say I am lazy. I just got no motivation to do anything, it always go wrong, so why bother.
They said “you are ill see a phsycologist, I seen 3 they cannot do anything.
Now they made out I making these things up, but I am not “these things are very real”.

My enemies are in my head. Tormenting me because I know the truth but cannot prove it.

They all say " you got behavoural problems”
I just have not developed from when I was 13. There is nothing I can do about it.

Seek help from those who do not want to give me any help.

I am now under the impression that I am dead. this is the torment, for bad things I do.
“you will get tormented in the grave, as your deeds, good and bad get read off." Until the day of judgement and get rewarded or punished by the creator.

The creator can do most things that we have no comprehension of.
I am dead and in my grave, but to me I am living getting tormented, for everything I have done. This is going to last for a million years then hell forever.

well that my problems for today. I may have different thoughts tomorrow. I may have the same.

mamdell

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Well, i don’t mind listening. I won’t be here all the time tho'.
I don’t believe in judgement day or anything like that.
U sound as tho' u were one put in the “too hard basket” by the professionals. Personally i’d get a cousellor not a psychologist. Psychologists just box people up into categories and if u don’t fit that’s your tuff luck. A cousellor may be able to help u come up with practical options of ways to cope, step by step. You need to wanna co-operate otherwise nothing will work.
I had an acute bout of Schitzophrenia when i was a child. I remember it vividly. Also have had hormonal probs which presented as manic-depression, anxiety disorders and also body-dysmorphic disorder which involved self mutilation(these are all related “disorders” I have them under control/or they’ve just adjusted themselves somehow-i have an idea how but it’s too “new-agey”. The schitzophrenia only lasted for a short time and never arose again). I know there are people far worse off than me. In fact i used to work with some of them as a social educator in a disabilities program.
What can u do if u won’t let people help u?
Perception is a strange thing. I could be smiling at you, but u may think i’m bearing my teeth in a ferocious way. Maybe you’re like the dude who came to the Australian outback from overseas and thought everyone was waving “hello” to him all the time when in fact they were brushing the flies away. That sounds ridiculous. Oh, well. It is late and i’ve been working in the bush all day and driving for hours and i’ve just gotten the kids to bed. There are a million other things to do, it’s never ending. I love every bit of it-even chopping the wood and washing the poo-i use those times to meditate or conjure up dramas in my head.
We all love to have our little dramas don’t we?

oddwad

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I making a drama out of a crisis

Francisco Sanchez

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mamdell

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I was just joking. I should’nt have said that. It requires prerequisite knowledge to be able to laugh at it i guess.
No, your crisis sounds very serious and i will try and listen to what u have to say. I’m not saying i can do anything much about any of it, but i will listen when i can. Mostly i have a very dry sense of humour which unintentionally sounds sarcastic sometimes. Australia has made me this way i guess.
I’m just rambling.

oddwad

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The system has made me like this. I hate the system. Who came up with these fucking rules

mamdell

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The system is fucked. I wanna break it down! I won’t stop fighting the bastards!

oddwad

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Yeh fuck em. I gonna join the russian general

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The System?

THE_SUFFERING

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If i was a german i would laugh to !!!









































































But i’m not. HAHAHA ^__^

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Your not german? What is the world coming too?

THE_SUFFERING

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Well that’s another good question ! What IS the world coming too. Not much going by the many people on this forum. And do i know of this mamadell ??? Only time will tell....Only time will tell.