I wished to make a public apology to people upon recent events, to everyone goes the major apology about causing the havoc around here and appearently throwing things into chaos, though I do have some things to touch up on otherwise:
2. One of my larger apologies concerns obviously the webmaster, Bjarne Lundgren.
To keep things fairly short you had trusted me with the moderator position and needless to say that blew right up in your face, I can’t imagine that made you feel very good about making that 'mistake'.
3. To the moderators, I say sorry for putting you into the position of what to do with a troubled mind as mine at the time you had banned my I.P. to 'calm me down', although that didn’t exactly do anything, that is besides the point, being in that kind of position is confusing and should be unnecessary.
4. To my closer, erm, friends on here (Nitya and Google Queen for examples, a couple others, you know who you are) this havoc being created is a bit more than to simply the odd person passing by, you people knew me well and liked me quite a bit (from what I can gather anyhow) and that probably fared you off worse compared to my simple 'net buddies', seeing a friend in that kind of emotional and mental turmoil can make a person feel kind of helpless, trust me I know first hand, thus I apologise.
5. To my 'net buddies' (friends that are just friends, not best friends or good friends), just what the first paragraph read with a mix of number 4.
And last of all:
6. To Duriel, as much of a hatred I seem to have with you, I still respect you for being you, some of my actions towards you were innappropriate and completly uncalled for, though that doesn’t validate any of your actions either.
While I am on the topic of you, I may as well make my request, quite a simple one really...
(I may have forwarded this before to you, however since I do not know for sure I’ll simply retype it again.)
I just want you to leave me alone on the off topic section, completly.
I don’t care if you are in the same thread as me and talking to someone else, or if it’s in a discussion in the games/music/feedback forums since none of those places ever had a problem, but I just want you to not speak to me in the off topic section as to avoid anything like this again.
I’m not asking this in your interests, but in mine, the second to last time we had left notes I had nearly commited to suicide, although that is beside the point, I just want to prevent another incident such as that from happening.
If you do not wish to respect my request, I would understand, you have your reasons and motives, but I just find it better if we would just have it as that.
If I have forgotten anybody who doesn’t fall into one of these categories, it’s most likely you simply do not know me personally if not at all, or do not know about these recent events, in that note you need not trouble yourself over this.
P.S.: Yes, I did leave out number one, don’t get angry at me for it, I have my reasons for it, and I can count.
P.P.S.: If I have a couple of spelling mistakes in here, it’s because of this awkward keyboard, it’s harder to type on here because of the keys...
And one more thing; this is not verifying whether I am remaking permanent roots in this site again, this is only an apology, nothing more.
If you had taken the time to do so, thank you for reading, I hope this reaches the eyes of the people this concerns.
(To state the obvious; you need not post on here if you do not wish, it is far from required, but if you feel the want/need to post here, this is a public forum for a reason, and I will not object to it, no matter what you wish to say, though I hope you keep it on topic)
And I finally did some proof-reading and figured out what’s been going on, and I’m sorry I wasn’t here to support you, Tyreaus.
Mouthfull to say the least lol...
Your support probably would’ve been futile, there are about 20 some odd people wanting me to stay and it’s fluctuating my decision little, besides you shouldn’t be blaming yourself for something you couldn’t have had control over anyhow...(I had to deal with that before from someone else...)
Take it to another thread, if you would be so kind to.
I don’t want to spam this one, it’s a bit too important for that...
And nyet, it hasn’t come and gone, dormant for now perhaps but in the near future this can fire right back up again if I stay, posibly become worse...(why I am debating if my stay here was overdone)
great, your still here! I knew there was somthing weird with you just going away.
--- Dogbert said the deepest thing ever.
“It is all a part of the big illusion we perpetuate upon ourselves and which is in turn perpetuated upon us. When we believe we engage the illusion, when we stop believing we shatter the illusion and ourselves in the process because we are part of it."
I think about killing my self every day. its not that big a deal, the thought just crosses my mind now and again.
--- Dogbert said the deepest thing ever.
“It is all a part of the big illusion we perpetuate upon ourselves and which is in turn perpetuated upon us. When we believe we engage the illusion, when we stop believing we shatter the illusion and ourselves in the process because we are part of it."
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