bad things that happen in life

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does any-one beleive in god ??? I wish i could say “yes i believe in god” but during my life i have spent most of it in hell. when i was young i was happy. when i reached 18 i fell in love, just like a normal average guy would. we both loved each other, but then totally outta the blue she was taken from me. i watched her die in front of me .. i saw her take her last breath ... my life was ripped apart in front of me. why would god do this to me? how can i ever fall in love again? every girl that tries to get close to me ... it just cant work. i try to love them back, but i just can’t. there is only one person i love and she is dead. i think about her every day. every day now for 5 years. i cant stop thinking about her. i hide my pain from everyone. i don’t ask for help, or advice from anyone . my life is a nightmare ... i struggle ... i just struggle in life ... life i hate so much. i really try to be happy in life ... but i just can’t ... i would never take my own life. i will always fight on, but there are days when it get’s to me. i just feel so alone, so empty inside ... just to spend 1 more day with her ... i would spend an eternity in hell. some of you think you have it hard in life ... but belive me ... you don’t know what you have till its taken away from you. and it can be taken away from you at any time. why would god do this to me? he either doesn’t exist ... or he just don’t care ... i have to live with this for the rest of my life ... i don’t want pity from anyone ... why am i talking to you about this ... i don’t really know ... maybe because i don’t wanna share my pain with people i know ... and i know you people on here don’t really give a shit ... and ur right to do that ... but there times when you need to talk ... you need to get things from off of ur chest ... you need to talk ... instead of bottling it all up inside of you. i don’t want anyone to take me seriously ... it is the net after all ... but today ... today has bin 5 yrs ... 5 yrs today ... and i hate today ... i wish today never excised ... you people can think what you like about me ... you can laugh at me ... say im just full of shit ... but when you have no-one to turn to ... it do hurt ... one day all of you are going to experience some pain in your life ... some one you love will be taken from you ... it happens to us all ... i just wish i could exchange places with her ... but i can’t .... i wish there was a god ... but for me there ain’t ... i just want you people to understand ... if you have a chance to be happy ... grab a hold of it and never let it go ... it just mite be ur last chance to be happy ... i really would give anything to be happy for one more day ... but i never will be ... i just need to talk about this ... i don’t wanna share my pain with any one ... i just need to let it out now and then ... and today i really do need to take a deep breath and shout. anyways ... ... today i feel like shit ... but i will fight on in life ... i will struggle on until i myself am taken away ... you people on here should take a look at ur life ... have a good look of what you really do have ... I don’t think i will ever find happiness again ... i wish i could ... but she has bin taken away from me for ever ... and forever is a very long time ... if you find happiness in your life ... then you should keep a hold of it ... because it can be taken away from you quicker than ur ever realize. i don’t expect anyone to respond to this post ... this post is just for me ... for me to let go for a while ... now i’m gunna carry on drinking ... HEY ... DRINKING IS A MUGS GAME .... don’t end up like me ... just don’t ... laterZ peeps.

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"why would god do this to me? he either doesn’t exist ... or he just don’t care ..."

Is. 55:8-9 “for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith Jehovah. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."


See, God’s ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. God may have something better in store for you through this sorrow, something higher. We as people may think that it’s horrible and bad, but God may see it differently, God may have a higher plan for this, God sees things differently than us, and He just may be planning for better things in your life through this sorrow. We do not know what it may be, but maybe God’s planning for something truly better, something that we may not understand.


This is a good site that would probably help you out if you went to it and read the article, it’s to help you understand a few things in your sorrow, please, take a look, you may find comfort:
http://www.bible.org/page.asp?page_id=2000

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Yes, everyone will have something bad happening to them at least once in their life.

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Well more to the truth is he is busy trying to guide us in the pitfalls WE have put ourselves in... not everything that happans is God’s fault... he did give us free will, but had hoped that we would do something positive with it... instead we created a culture based on violence and power...

You can still pray, and that still has power, even if he doesn’t reach out to each and every one of your requests..... simply have educated faith... no none of this God will change my diaper stop a train from hitting me when I am laying on a railroad track and take care of me totally, but it is possible for him to help you still... just be weary of people for they can do more harm then most of the supernatural......