firewolf81 wrote: I don’t classify myself as insane. In fact, I am probably the most sane person I know. I am fully aware of how I must sound, hence the reason I don’t really have a habit of sharing all my dark and twisted secrets. I Am not normal, I give you that, but insane. Nope.

Insanity is not being able to tell truth from reality. A disorder of the mind if you will. Now don’t get me wrong, everyone has their issues and I am fully aware that I have a few quirks and twists to my personality, but as the poem said, I went deep and brought with me certain aspects of my personality that were always there but lay semi dormant. In delving though regressive meditation, I fought with those animalistic urges and managed to segregate them from my self in a separate entity if you will.

I spent a good years learning to control my body and mastered the art of meditation and honed certain other natural gifts that were observed by psychologists and other professionals during the early stages of my life.

There is a great deal to me that is far from what so called normal people classify as normal. yet to function in this world fashioned around socialization, rules and money I had to adapt, which I spent my time form the age of 12 onwards doing. I don’t like living as two singular people, infact, my whole life I have been conditioned by others to be something that they perceive as a semblance of normal. Did you know I was born a lefty but was made to learn to be right handed by the school system at he age of 6. Also another freaky fact. I was one half of a twin, however during the 9 months of gestation, I had managed to absorb the other fetus and was born as a single child. My life is a strange one and I am sure that once I am gone from this world, I can finally be that which I wish to be. ME. And me as a complete being, not this life that I must live to conform to the wishes of society.

People think they know me when honestly, they don’t know the half of it. But that is a good thing. That is proof that I can function as a member of society and not as an outcast and for this life, this time around, that will have to do.

Tuscan. Don’t get me wrong mate. I am proud to stand by you, but insane is something I am not.

tuscan1 wrote: 1)VOICES ye i hear voices, do i choose to listen no..

firewolf81 wrote: I was about to go to bed, but I figured I should set the record straight. I was saying I don’t think I (being me, myself, not others) is insane.

A clinically insane person does not chose to pick one side or the other, they just exist in whichever state of consciousness or delusion if you will, that they are accustomed to. They exist thinking that whatever they perceive is real and there is no right and wrong to their actions. The exist in which ever world or neurosis that their personality and mind dictate.

Now as I tried to say, and I mean no offense to anybody, supposedly sane of insane, is that I am aware of the strong duality of my being and I make a conscious effort to function out necessity as a normal, at least in outward appearance, human being.

This is only my opinion of myself and does not in anyway, shape or form stand for the other members of Movie Codec or of society at large.

I hope that this little misunderstanding has been cleared up as I did not wish to criticize or demean anybody. It was but my own opinion of myself and no one else.


Oh and if you are ever in Australia mate, the door is always open for friends like yourself.

pluto wrote:

that’s the wife mate

tuscan1 wrote:
No, i have to listen to her or i get what for

pluto wrote:

ye and no diner lol

pluto wrote: haha lol

you sound like my dad

i bet you would get a slap if she sher that

mimi38 wrote: hey how about you guys making the meal for a change!!!!

tuscan1 wrote:
I cook....!

mimi38 wrote:
oh you do what good stuff can you make???

pluto wrote: well i ent bad at spag bowel

pluto wrote: well i ent bad at spag bowel

tuscan1 wrote:
I wonder if mimi knows what spag bowl is?