I just want to go somewhere to live out the remainder of my days in peace. I am a hard worker and an honest person, these days however sicken me.
I am so tired of the hurry up and wait MTV fast food mentality of it all. I would consider myself lucky to be lost on some remote island somewhere.
I am a capable person, I survive because I have to, I have a job and a car and a house and all of the shit that goes with it. I have had enough. . maybe I was born in the wrong century. All I know is, I need to find a way out!
I think i know what your talking about. Everything is go go go and you feel like your only surviving 'cause you have to and everybody else is having fun. My ideal place to be is in a forset with nobody else, with a river. That would be the life
Try going travelling. I was feeling the same way as you 4 years ago and I took myslef off to the other side of the world for 4 months by myself. it forced me to get to know myself better and realise what I liked/disliked etc. I know its corny but it does help you find yourself and I cam back more able to cope with the nothingness that life often throws your way. And dont think that you arent the type of person who can do this cos I am the shyest, most insecure person know.
life has completely numbed me...i am indifferent to it. i know i should appreciate what has been given to me..but i have a hard time living this way no human should have to persist this way. i live as a societal slave. no matter how much i pray, the wealth i gain, friends i make, my family....there has to be something else out there meaningful enough for me to care again. i dont take drugs or meds....i just can’t believe this drudgery is all i have in my future.....i sit in my cell/office and dream of freedom...2 weeks of vacation every year feels more like parole...then back to prison. to transcend this staleness and sterility is my hope.....i know there is something out there i just need direction
jel wrote:
life has completely numbed me...i am indifferent to it. i know i should appreciate what has been given to me..but i have a hard time living this way no human should have to persist this way. i live as a societal slave. no matter how much i pray, the wealth i gain, friends i make, my family....there has to be something else out there meaningful enough for me to care again. i dont take drugs or meds....i just can’t believe this drudgery is all i have in my future.....i sit in my cell/office and dream of freedom...2 weeks of vacation every year feels more like parole...then back to prison. to transcend this staleness and sterility is my hope.....i know there is something out there i just need direction
Do something you would never normally do. Take a drug or two, get unpredictable smashed drunk at a party or club. Break the law. Shock the hell outta yourself. Live it up every once in a while. Then subconsciously sabotage your life to come to the realization of how much you really do appreciate what you had. You will finally wake the fuck up and snap out of it. Hell, you might even enjoy life better.
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jel wrote:
life has completely numbed me...i am indifferent to it. i know i should appreciate what has been given to me..but i have a hard time living this way no human should have to persist this way. i live as a societal slave. no matter how much i pray, the wealth i gain, friends i make, my family....there has to be something else out there meaningful enough for me to care again. i dont take drugs or meds....i just can’t believe this drudgery is all i have in my future.....i sit in my cell/office and dream of freedom...2 weeks of vacation every year feels more like parole...then back to prison. to transcend this staleness and sterility is my hope.....i know there is something out there i just need direction
Do something you would never normally do. Take a drug or two, get unpredictable smashed drunk at a party or club. Break the law. Shock the hell outta yourself. Live it up every once in a while. Then subconsciously sabotage your life to come to the realization of how much you really do appreciate what you had. You will finally wake the fuck up and snap out of it. Hell, you might even enjoy life better.
I’m sure there’s laws protecting you from telling that to minors dude. Seriously grow up. Telling him to go drink or break laws is not going to help him. What he needs is to figure life out not destroy it.
Shalebridge wrote:
I just want to go somewhere to live out the remainder of my days in peace. I am a hard worker and an honest person, these days however sicken me.
I am so tired of the hurry up and wait MTV fast food mentality of it all. I would consider myself lucky to be lost on some remote island somewhere.
I am a capable person, I survive because I have to, I have a job and a car and a house and all of the shit that goes with it. I have had enough. . maybe I was born in the wrong century. All I know is, I need to find a way out!
Play Oblivion. End of story.
--- Not dead that which can eternal lie,
And with strange aeons death may die.
- H. P. LovecraftJoin the Order
jel wrote:
life has completely numbed me...i am indifferent to it. i know i should appreciate what has been given to me..but i have a hard time living this way no human should have to persist this way. i live as a societal slave. no matter how much i pray, the wealth i gain, friends i make, my family....there has to be something else out there meaningful enough for me to care again. i dont take drugs or meds....i just can’t believe this drudgery is all i have in my future.....i sit in my cell/office and dream of freedom...2 weeks of vacation every year feels more like parole...then back to prison. to transcend this staleness and sterility is my hope.....i know there is something out there i just need direction
Do something you would never normally do. Take a drug or two, get unpredictable smashed drunk at a party or club. Break the law. Shock the hell outta yourself. Live it up every once in a while. Then subconsciously sabotage your life to come to the realization of how much you really do appreciate what you had. You will finally wake the fuck up and snap out of it. Hell, you might even enjoy life better.
I’m sure there’s laws protecting you from telling that to minors dude. Seriously grow up. Telling him to go drink or break laws is not going to help him. What he needs is to figure life out not destroy it.
Oh, I didn’t realise minors sit in their office and take 2 weeks vacation from work annually? On another note, my previous post was written with sarcasm in mind.
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