Most people who were Nihilists, Atheists or Agnostic were a part of some organized religion in their past, and then lost their faith over a huge tragedy in their lives, long lines of thinking, etc. If you are one of these, explain how you became one.
My Story
I was a Jew from when I was born until two years ago about. During these years I had strong faith in God and that I would be granted salvation, and that God loved me. However, things changed when I became diagnosed with clinical depression, and other events I will not mention right now. I saw the world in a whole new view many others will never see, and they are lucky. School did not help either considering I was quiet, making me an easy target for bullying. I was also a part of a Catholic School for a year, where I was hurt more than I ever has. Everyday, students would tell me I was going to burn in hell because I did not accept Jesus as the lord. Finally, one day I exploded, and though I did not stop believing in God, I hated him now. I threw rocks through church windows, even synagogue windows, and cursed at God whenever he was mentioned. Finally, I thought for a while about all the shit that this world has and why would any God let it happen. People began to tell me, maybe he does not care about this planet. Then I began to think, 'why should we pray to him anyway?' Soon enough, I did not believe anymore, and read many philosophy books on nihilism and found that it is exactly what I believe. Since then, I have been a nihilist.
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Most people who were Nihilists, Atheists or Agnostic were a part of some organized religion in their past, and then lost their faith over a huge tragedy in their lives, long lines of thinking, etc. If you are one of these, explain how you became one.
My Story
I was a Jew from when I was born until two years ago about. During these years I had strong faith in God and that I would be granted salvation, and that God loved me. However, things changed when I became diagnosed with clinical depression, and other events I will not mention right now. I saw the world in a whole new view many others will never see, and they are lucky. School did not help either considering I was quiet, making me an easy target for bullying. I was also a part of a Catholic School for a year, where I was hurt more than I ever has. Everyday, students would tell me I was going to burn in hell because I did not accept Jesus as the lord. Finally, one day I exploded, and though I did not stop believing in God, I hated him now. I threw rocks through church windows, even synagogue windows, and cursed at God whenever he was mentioned. Finally, I thought for a while about all the shit that this world has and why would any God let it happen. People began to tell me, maybe he does not care about this planet. Then I began to think, 'why should we pray to him anyway?' Soon enough, I did not believe anymore, and read many philosophy books on nihilism and found that it is exactly what I believe. Since then, I have been a nihilist.
I’m a atheist. My story...
My idea of god, was a loving powerful being. One day I thought it would be a good idea to actually read the bible for once. The god I read in the bible, was differently not the god I had come to believe in. So for years I still believe in my version of god. Looking for more and more evidence. But the more knowledge I built up, the less likely the god/s of any known religion could exist in this universe. Eventually I just admitted to myself the truth.
--- Theory does not mean an unsubstantiated guess or hunch, as it can in everyday speech. A theory is a logically self-consistent model or framework for describing the behavior of a related set of natural or social phenomena.
I was raised non-religiously. Then when I went to school I became Christian because they had a “Religious Education” (Christian Brainwashing) class for younger students, which they should not have had for kids that young.
When I began to the read I had an intrest in dinosaurs, like many young kids, so I started reading books about them and other prehistoric life forms and came across the theory of evolution, which I had not heard of. I took evolution in, because it had more evidence for it. In this period, though I did not believe in God, I still experimented a bit with spiritualism and all that stuff such as Ouija boards and visiting houses rumoured to be haunted.
Later on I began to feel life was meaningless and became suicidal and all that crap. I also felt extremely guilty because I had done a lot of bad things and hated myself for it. I was going to kill myself, and therefore began to wonder about death god and all the deep things. I thought “If God is real and he is loving and merciful, he will send me a sign and give me a second chance." My mother collects a lot of books. I went to a bookshelf and grabbed a random one without a title on the spine or cover and flipped it open at random. It was the Quran, and it was Surah 3, Verse 31, which reads;
“Say: if you love God, then follow me, God will love you and forgive you your faults, and God is forgiving, merciful”
That is when I joined Islam. The more I read the Quran, the more convinced I became of it’s authenticity because it’s description of Al-Jinn (the demons/spirits) matched my own experiences, some of it’s verses that preached non-violence and had things that I thought it was amazing for one 7th century illiterate Arab to have known (the world is round, life is made of water et cetera)
Then I started to think twice about how God flooded the world and killed everyone except Noah’s family, and how God blasted the town of Sodom simply because homosexuals lived there. I put my past experience down to coincidence and some of the scientific accuracies in the Quran down to coincidence also, then I left Islam.
And here I am. An Agnostic.
--- WHUT DA FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARK?
Last edited 08 Jul 2008 11:34 pm by Sean of the Living
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