Any advice is welcome

Rachel

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Ok here goes...
I’m 17 and I’ve been a model since I was sixteen, I moved out of my parents house and now I share a flat with two older friends, recently I’ve been on a downhill spiral and it just feels like I’m out of control.

I’ve modelled for Dior, Chanel and Prada so far, I go to parties and clubs almost every night of the week, i’m surrounded by all these beautiful and glamourous people but I just feel so trapped.
I’ve been on two different anti-depressants, and I’ve collapsed from stress twice in the last three months. Throughout the day I basically survive on coffee and apples anything els makes me throw up.
I take speed and ecstasy and I’ve been paralletic with drink more than once this week, I’ve slept with so many guys that I’ve actually lost count, I feel like this could fill the emptiness in me but it never does.
My friends are all older than me they think that parties and one night stands will cheer me up but they couldn’t be more wrong. It just makes me feel so cheap and worhtless.

I no this isn’t an advice site but I’ve read some of the other posts and thought just talking might help, any advice is welcome.

Panz

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Move in with me doll, I’ll take good care of ye.

Panz

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But seriously, sounds like you shoulda called it quits awhile ago.

Never too late to take the hint.

Get out of that environment awhile to take control of your life.

Your friends might be fun, but they aren’t useful here. It’s time to take the low road.

Good luck

Panzram (occasionally lurking. . )

wiseformyyears

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Why did u move out of your parents' house? Unless there was some terrible reason, you should get out of the scene you are in now if you want to change your life. Obviously it’s not working for you.

You don’t seem to be a shallow superficial person. If you want to find more meaning in your life I suggest that you take some time to get healthy and volunteer somewhere. You could even check out the Americorps programs (http://www.americorps.org/joining/faqs.html) and go somewhere completely different.
That’s my two cents since u asked….

Rachel

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Once your in a business like this it’s hard to get out because if I did quit I’d have nothing, I mean I quit school, I left home, I left my old friends, all for modelling. And before you say anything my mom would never take me back she hates me for leaving her.
What oppurtunities are there for someone with know degrees or anything, modelling is what I do theres no escaping that is there?

seanking

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panz, your a fucking dumbass

Panz

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You can earn degrees and return to school or earn a GED. But if that’s not what you want to do, you can still pull back some from what you are doing now. Just make it clear to your friends that you want something else, and they’ll probably respect that.

Then you can pull back and do your own thing. You don’t need to sleep with a lot of guys and do drugs and be around all of these beautiful people. Take the quiet life with a hand shake, is my best advice.

It’s hard, but there is no more that I can tell you then that you need to just stop. It might take you some time, but if you keep trying for it, you’ll break out of all of this stuff and manage to have succeeded in a bad position.

Panz

seanking

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that was probably the most unintellegent thing i have ever seen written.

Panz

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unintelligent*

Panz

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But I don’t care about your spelling. If you are wise, do me one better with some better advice. I’m sure Rachel would like some.

By all means! *steps aside

seanking

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thanks for correcting me

Rachel

Guest

Thank you Panz for giving me some much needed advice.
I took you up on that advice after one of my modelling friends was attacked outside a club last night, shes in hospital with two broken ribs and a bust nose, and shes had twelve stitches above her eye.
When I got back from the hospital this morning I called an old friend of mine who is now working as a college professor in Michigan, I asked her about enrolling in some courses, she says she’ll get back to me with the relevant information. I feel like I’m more in control now and this isn’t a place I want to be, hopefully I can get clean and maybe do something with my life.

Panz

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I wish you the best of luck. You seem intelligent and I think you will do well. But be careful, you could meet with all kinds of disappointment while you are trying out enrolling in courses and all of this. You are young and it all doesn’t really matter, but remember to not let yourself down. You do deserve better and you are capable of better. Circumstances change, and that’s all that can be said.

Be patient and take what you must when it comes.

I keep worrying that you might let your friends bring you right back into the same stuff again and again, and I hope you know that they see the good and not the bad. You’re the one that’s living with this stuff. Lust or life. Lust hasn’t worked out, so time to retire from the old games. Keep a safe distance from this side of your friends. No matter what.

Take care of yourself, I don’t want you to end up like your friend.

Panz

PS: You can e-mail me if you’d like. I won’t be checking here much so I thought I’d offer.

Rachel

Guest

Hey, thank you panz you’ve been to good to me, I will try to get in touch via email however i’m not using my own computer so we’ll see if it works,
My friend is getting out of hospital tomorrow and on Friday there’s going to be a party for her I don’t know whether I should go or not because it might bring me back to that party lifestyle again, but I need to show support for my friend, what should I do?
What is your story Panz?

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Let me say first that I’m not going to be checking around here much because I already post at enough boards to keep me busy and have lots of things I should be doing! I won’t be coming here at all, actually. I hope you will be able to keep in touch, but if not, well, you’ve got more important things to worry about.

That’s nice that your friend is going to be having a party, but I don’t know. You’ve got a lot of problems, and I don’t think it would be wise for you to go. I do think that because she is your friend and is recovering from a bad experience, that you should maybe buy her a gift and deliver it some other time under quieter circumstances. Something safe like that. I’m sure she’d understand! While that celebration goes, you should be getting used to the average joe life! . . And that alone is an accomplishment! Good for you!

And as for my story. . well, let’s just say that’s a long and troublesome affair! I am a crooked 19 year old if you’ve ever seen one. But no matter, I won’t get into it here, since I’m done here anyway.

See you later, or not, but do well to take it easy. Life is boring, but it ain’t so bad! At least, it doesn’t have to be TOO bad!

Goodbye!

Panzram

whyyy

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anyone wanna help me?...its this guy, me and him have been good friends for over like 3 years like best friends..we have dated before but it didnt work out yet..there is ALWAYS this feeling like when I see him I like him and i cant shake it. so anyways he has a gf and like idk they are cool and whatever but still I like him so much and I know he likes me bc we have discussed it before. anyways a few nights ago we got drunk and like cuddled ALOT but like didnt actually do anything and like gosh idk i just wanna know should I move on, or like suggestions on how to move on and meet other ppl I just cant im so stuck on him!

sharon

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Maybe im wrong, but why not just ask him what he thinks about it all? be really blunt n c if you are the one he wants or whats up

my 2 cents

sharon

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i was posting to whyy btw

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srry

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It doesn’t sound to me like your asking for advice. It sounds like you know what you should do and you want people to tell you they agree with your thoughts on what you feel would be the right thing. I think you know that fucking everything that walks and messing your body up with drugs isn’t what you should be doing and you want moral support. Well, here you have it. Stop fucking everyone, stop being a dumbass with drugs. Your letting your money and your career take advantage of you. I’ve seen too many people like you who have everything dump it down the drain because it’s still not enough. If you keep it up, you’ll end up being a hooker who lives in a cardboard box by the sewer. Stop now and be who you want to be, not who every other sack of shit wants you to be. I’m done.